yeah hoo!!!!!

YEAH!!! i finally done all of my final exam paper!! even the re-seat paper for econs also not bad.. can get pass la, but if wanna be better muz get a C also.. haha.. luckily tis sem work a bit harder so my result wont be too bad gua?! juz hope tat GOD may bless me let me get some improvement la, bczo when doing exam tat time i really feel that it could be better than last sem leh. except for chemistry and math~~ so now i really got the mood for celebrate CNY jor laar!! so happy ^^
tis whole week for me might be boring week.. nothing to do, nothing to play and no where to go~~ every place also go until sienz adi.. all my fren also balik kampung jor~~ so pity alone here.. lester pulak stay so far at klang~
i mayb will going back ipoh one day earlier bcoz my parent said wanna avoid jam and dun wan stay at highway for 6hours anymore.. hope to go petaling street leh!! i really long time din go there adi.. wanna go there try and see the new year looks!! and also the new year mood!! anyone free and who read my blog,contact me la, k?? stay at home really damn boring and nothing to do lea!!! Wu yue, wish u happy chinese new year here ya!! i dun have your blog so cannot crop u even a comment.. sobs T.T

finally...

exam for few days adi lor.. luckily la.. not very bad, still ok.. can pass mayb?! who noe?? but sure wan la.. writing for science, programming, public speaking and physic also can pass la.. so far so good.. but 2day UTAR management really suckx lor!!! the thaipusan holiday they replace on today.. kann ni nia cibai!!! exam start from early in the morning 9-11am.. den continue at 6-8pm!! wat the fucking hell like timetable huh?? we 2moro not rest de ok!! u muz think tat 2moro we still got to do our chemistry!! we got no time at all to study tis.. so how?? and some more when i having exam, dunno who stupid shit asshole call to my hp!!and i forget to silent it lor.. den the phone ring ring ring!! nia ma,my new number how come suddenly got ppl call me wan, me also terkejut leh, den let teacher diuu me kao kao!! den i think my car block someone else la, bcoz i double park leh.. but den when later i rush to finish up my exam paper and i fast fast run out!! no one was there!! and den i call back no one answer!! cibai let me kena scold and let me rush fast fast to finish up my exam!! 2nite lester will gonna revision wit kin and yong zhang them.. sure their result not bad wan la tis time.. haih, only me study alone at home.. me really dunno wat the fuck is the note talking about lor!! but den wat to do?? tis is my faith.. god zhu ding tat i cannot get 2.0 for tis sem.. T.T i really really very sad lor.. i really work hard tis sem but.. i still cannot get back wat i want.. i juz need all pass!! i juz need 2.00.. izzit too much?? not rite??!! but why juz cant let me get 2.00 tis sem? haiz, tis time chinese new year also cannot happy happy play adi.. keep on worrying for my own shit result!! haiz.. how?? should i continue for sem3?? should i repeat my math ?? or the 3rd choice, which is continue for sem3 but dun repeat sem?? i dun wan waste anymore money here.. i juz hope to change course.. but i dun wan stay at PJ for IT course leh!! i wan go setapak!! i wan go there wit all my frenz!! my ex skul fren also there, lester and kin they all also going there next year.. I MUST GO THERE!! i cannot let myself disappointed.. i will work really really hard in sem3.. haih, now feel tired adi..wanna study also no mood adi.. juz hope the god can keep me save in 2moro exam lor.. feel like wanna giving up adi.. !! really tired until wanna die jor.. papa mama, really sorry.. your son- me adi try my best to get the best result in tis sem.. but 2moro chemistry really feeling like hopeless adi.. i gonna let u all disappointed on me again.. sorry T.T
missing someone so so so much.. but cannot chat wit her!! my msn got problem.. also dunno is wat problem.. keep on line drop.. internet also slow like hell.. since laz nite adi like tis.. me really very very geram!! i paid for streamyx , but i get service like tmnet!!

wat a so unlucky day

2day early in the morning jiu wake up adi.. me adi one whole week sleep until 12pm, actually now wanna wake up really very very hard and very tired.. but 2day start to exam adi, terpaksa muz wake up lor.. plan to go out on 7.30am de, but later papa call back said tat highway very jam,so how?? fast fast finish prepare den fast fast go out jor lor.. really jam until like !!@#$%$^%$^! almost half an hour stuck inside jam..make me scare, scare cannot be in PJ on time.. i still have to fetch lester along to exam.. but at laz luckily i can be on time.. and den walk into the exam hall lor, bcoz 2day only exam writing for science,so happy bcoz it is the most easiest and most confident subject for me..but when i walk inside!! WTF!! no electricity!!! damn hot and damn gelap there la.. at last our exam delay for almost half an hour den only start.. but i can finish on time la, bcoz i have to fast fast finish it up,my car was double park outside there.. so must finish it faster before someone all me for move my car away.. haih, 2day only the 1st day, the easiest day.. the another 6 coming up days.. is really my suffer days!! i hate hate hate leh!! 2moro adi is programming.. can let me die adi.. and later p.speaking.. den physics, chemistry,maths!!!and finally the laz paper on next monday.. is my reseat paper-- Econ!!
im so so so worried now.. juz now fall sleep a while adi.. too tired.. i hope to finish up my revision before i sleep.. but mayb i cant do it.. it really got too much things for me t study about.. lot of things have to memorize.. GOD please help me.. im really suffering now T.T

death-line

2moro is monday, so start from 2moro will gonna be the days tat i suffering for.. people exam for 6days only but me have to exam for 7days.. although it is juz one day more.. but i have to exam until the next week monday.. feel like very pity.. i really dun like tis kind of feeling, some mroe i havent finish all my revision yet, so how?? wait to die ar?? i dun think so.. bcoz i wanna change myself.. i cannot simply said give up!! i muz try my best,before result is come out, i still got hope!!but leh, someone seems like moody for one whole day..so worried about her but wat to do.. im not with her, cannot help her,.. juz can try my best to comfort her down.. dun let her think too much..2moro start exam adi, everyone feeling stress,scare cannot do well.. but i wanna noe tat, izzit im should be the one who most worried leh? im the WORST among all of my fren.. me also juz like tat only, why they keep on worried? mayb different type of ppl got different type of requirement gua?but for me la, i dunno why they think so much, juz try your best is enuff rite?? why muz paksa yourself so hard to get a lil bit more marks? as logn as u try your best and then sure u wont regret la.. so,still got wat to worry? haih.. feeling very very guilty now~~

Endless suffer, Endless fan nao!!

haih,so fast saturday adi lor.. in tis week,wat i had done?? nothing.. wat i had study for?? nothing.. the next Monday will be my final exam adi.. but juz dunno why i still cannot fully concentrate on my studies.. really lot of things annoying me.. but lazy wanna type it all at here la.. bcoz few days before i had told someone.. lazy wanna repeat again.. my dad fall sick adi.. quite serious.. i very worried about him, but, u noe la.. i worried i concerned..but i juz cant do what i should do.. later morning he will go see specialist,wanna check and see izzit really something wrong.. bcoz he sick for quite a long time adi, see many doctor adi.. still cannot sure.. my heart was worrying..but normal ppl juz cannot see from my face.. mayb most of them feel tat im very bu xiao shun.. but actually im not like tat.. juz now finish kim seong's birthday celebration..haha!! Happy birthday to you kim seong!! all the best.. but, haiz,im still very very fan..

=.= moody laar

haih,2day is Monday again.. why every Monday keep on passing through me?? why time passing so fast?? why ppl muz be grown up?? why muz got so many many uncountable thigns appearing in my mind?? i juz hope to study in a proper mood also cannot huh? 2moro is a quite important day for me.. bcoz 2moro got chemistry and also math consultation, but den i really hope to go there, and can learn something back.. wont be both hand also blank blank.. i have to score well in tis time final.. huh~~ so pressure.. so scare~ hand also bergetar adi lor.. but wat to do,tis is wat happen la, din prepare well,do laz minutes revision.. hah!! padan muka lor!! sobs
and, 2day will be the laz day in black hair, in original hair!! hmm,2moro i will go cut and dye.. but juz hope tat colour really wont be too lala lor.. later all ppl also beh song at me den how?? haha~ but another things i worried is, i really scare tat colour was not acceptable in my family by those elder generation laa..for us tis kind of age-ing group, sure no problem wan.. but my popo,.. my uncle.. my aunty...i kena nvm, but juz dun like ppl talk about ym parents anymore.. tis is wat i had decide, not their decision, so PLS!! wan nag, nag at me ; wan scold, scold at me ; wan kill, kill me la.. i dun care, i am only the one who should be responsibility on tis matter!! 2day whole day at home doing nothing only, feeling like so useless in tis family.. only noe waste time, spend money.. but dunno how to study, and regenerate some $$$!!! aiyaya!! if it hink more my head gonna letup adi laa, BOOM!! den wat also no need to think about, wat also no need to worry jor lor.. like tat ma good?? but i cannot let tis happen on me, im the eldest, i should be resposible to all my siblings!! haih, dota dota dota only.. drama drama drama only in these few days.. arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! got somethign to relax me down to cool me down?? hep to go clubbing.. but my parent sure wont allow wan.. they will keep on nagging and scolding me supaya im study harder.. but i need somethign refreshing my mind.. and tat is only the way for me is >> clubbing!!! i wan those damn loud loud music,,to chase away all my fan nao!!
but for now... dunno why.. really someone was keep on appear in my mind..

haih, why me always yang kena? y not other ppl?!

haih, another sad day for me..i really feel very very unhappy to stay inside tis house..i get lot of pressure and lot of things tat i dun hope to get it..i juz ask for 40,for cut hair and also dye..actually need rm70. i juz ask for 40,very keterlaluan meh??no rite??i noe wat condition on my family now,tats why i also din ask for others useless things like laptop and new hp,i juz wanna dye my hair only wat,like tis also got wrong meh??im not gonna kill ppl,rape ppl,robber,selling drygs,taking drugs,juz simply..wanna put something on my hair,also wrong??salah dari sisi undang undang ke??got law said tat cannot dye hair ke?i juz ask for money,i juz need your answer la,either "YES" or juz tell me "NO"..if yes juz give me 40 la,no den fine!! i will pay myself..i still afford to paid it..but the problem is,u all always said tat i not hormat u all,do wat thigns also never tell u all..do wat things also never ask for permission..actually is not like tat..i noe,every thing i ask you all sure,for sure 10000% u all will nag nag nag nag and scold scold scold scold me wan..wat point i ask if i not really want it?? 难道要自己拿来衰啊?嫌自己被骂得少啊? tats why most of things i not really wan i also wont ask them..but they dunno.. they juz simply think tat i still 3years old,i still cannot differentciate between GOOD and BAD.. and den fine la, if u all dun wan give me $$$.. i dun care wat, i sure go and dye by myself wan..
why all ppl muz so care about tat how ppl looking at them har?为何要那么在意人家怎样看你呢?他们不会欣赏你是他们的事情拉, 最重要就是我做回我自己,做好我的本份就对了啊, 难道这都有错吗?有罪吗? 为什么染头发就会被警察blok??为什么染头发就代表是坏孩子? 为什么染头发就不能给别人一个好的印象呢? 那些明星染头发, 不见得人家说他们不好? 不见得警察去blok他们? 不见得他们是坏孩子?? how to determine a ppl is good or bad, cannot juz depends on his face, cannot!! cannot juz depends on his outside!! someone we said tat he is good,is bcoz his heart,a nd his attitute let us feel tat he was good.. he was kind~ not juz decide by outter part!! so like me, all ppl tat tak kenal me yet, all said my face looks very lan ci, but actually im not..im very very frenly ppl, who now adi kenal me de ppl all also agreed at tis point, so means wat?! means tat we cannot judge a book by its cover!!

if u all wan scold me wan nag at me, okay!! i can tahan, but why u all use so abd words, so cruel words to scold me?? im your son!! i noe wat is good and wat is bad!! i can differentciate!! 那些姨妈姑姐.叔伯兄弟要讲我就给他们讲咯,难道染头发有罪吗?嘴巴是他们的, 你可以有能力去顶着那把嘴吗? 等到你将来有本事的时候他们就自然会自动diam diam不敢出声了咯.对不对?
i noe la, my study is not good at all.. i also noe tat my result like shit, u all not satisfy wit it!! but den so wat?? izzit result not good = die?? not rite?? result not good not means end of the world, mayb juz tis fielc is not suitable for me, who noe mayb in other subject i can score well?? i can get better marks?? i can do very very good?? i noe u all dun like my result,also no need scold me like tat wan!!! 说什么人家去学校上课, 我就去学那些不三不四的东西. 我去学校我有何尝不想可以拿到更好的成绩呢? 有谁会甘心看着集资的成绩一蹋屎那样而不心疼? 我也会不开心的,问题是我已经尽力了,还能怎样? 尤其是我的数学..我已经尽我的能力去做去学去背了, 结果也还不是那样?有用吗? 或许你们说得对, 我根本没有尽我自己100%的能力吧?

actually recently,bcoz of the final exam is getting nearer and nearer,my head also gonna burst and burst and burst.. mayb juz form my face u all cannot see wat my feeling, bcoz i use to hide all my emotion under my face..juz some of them, who was more understand me wan,.. mayb they can noe..but it is no cure too.. 心病还须心药医, 解铃还须系铃人..怎说都好我现在的情况也可以算是心病了, 就必须我自己来解决,外人根本无法理解我的处境,我的情况,我的烦恼..五月,突然间好想好想念你,怎么办啊? 哎.......吃草了啦

exam?!! huh!! on 21/1/08

according to the title above, sure you all know that my exam is coming on 21/1 jor la.. rite? so mayb i will less blog here adi.. juz temporaly la.. juz one or 2weeks time wont blog.. haih!! so worried about my studies.. all like shit.. if tis sem some more cannot pass den i also dunno how adi.
change skul? i dun hope so.. bcoz i bu she de all my frenz at utar..but if dun wan change skul i will die bcoz of the maths paper leh!! den my future will gone!! so how?? teach me laar!! im so sad so fan now lor.. my parents seems like wan me to continue at utar.. not i dun wan, juz the MATHS is the main problem.. i hateeeee MATHS!!!!!! kanasai math!! go die laar.. tis sem i sure have to repest for maths adi.. but i dun wan repeat.. i wan go setapak wit all my frenz now!! haiz,, wth~
tis sem de test all seems like can wait die only, should i still add more oil to study hard in the laz week from now? or juz let it die only.. den relax relax and play play?? i feel like "bai gah zai".. wasting papa mama work so hard to earn de money.. and wasting my own time again and again..
but wat to do, mayb i really got no yuan fen wit engineering gua?!! haih.. i wan be business man in future.. i wan monthly income >10k every month!!!!!

wat a bad starting huh?!!!

haiz, the 1st blog on my new year of 2008, but it is a bad luck starting blog.. seems like whole year also im gonna like tis~ new year start with bad luck, end with bad luck also.. juz like the whole year of 2007 lor.. 2day i get back my MATH test2 de result, u all guess is how many marks??!! sure i tell u all also u wont believe it.. it is only ONE mark!!! haiz.. wat the hell im doing huh?? haiz~~ feel tat myself was too bad.. papa mama working so damn hard to earn money but now im wasting their money by no point!! some more wasting my own time also.. wat to do?? someone pls tell me?
i hate hate hate to be a student!! petrol expensive la.. eat expensive la.. spend also expensive..
buy one shoe gone rm60, one tuo xie also rm30.. one shirt rm30 .. all is after discount price man, still so expensive, i really not dare to imagine tat how my life will be in the future.. hopeless life T.T
i wan go play play here and there..i dun like diam diam sit here wan.. but i got no money to spend.. and i also bu hao yi si ask money from papa mama anymore~ i noe they very xin ku~ but.. me myself got no money!! im always over spendign wan.. haiz, wanna go work jor la.. very very big possibility tat i will change skul bcoz i dun wan to repeat math!!!