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today dunno why i cant really sleep very deep.. around 1230 only i done my dinner den go back.. den need finish up the conclusion part for my lou po.. afterward i also need rush up my technical drawing, haiz but i rush untilo those words like shit lor.. write until dunno how to say.. bcuz adi tired jor de.. still need to do homework, a bit tired some more few nites before also din really sleep well except for sunday nite.. now again another morning that i suddenly getting awake.. dunno wat my brain is thinking.. sleep till half den suddenly awake, when gonna sleep back tat time pulak the mosque beside metroview had start to bla bla bla , mahai !!! its really damn disturbing ppl's sleeping laar.. later 8am start class adi, i dunno until tis time should i conrinue to sleep or wat else.. my heart was worrying for something else.. 2moro need to prepare the build con de assignment adi but i hope yo back home sleep at the 3 hours break time, dunno they got anything to do or not.. i'm relly tired.. here cmes my sprry and apologize to my dear dear, bcuz she said why i always post out something sad woor.. but when i got story to write here means my mood was not really good lor.. so if someone hope that i can be happy everyday den better hope tat i din post anything else here.. i got one housemate went penang adi until later only will come back.. juz now fai lin's fren was here den we talking with pur personal hair stylist, Mr Jeff, haha! he will be here until 4Nov i think.. mayb tis time im gonna cut my hair, but mayb not also.. depends bah, see see tis weekend got anything happen or not.. lester will be back on tis weekend.. haih, suddenly feel so hungry.. juz now they bought some beer den i also drink lil bit adi now bcuz still got remaining.. the sky is still so dark.. dark until not like normal days especially tis few days de weather really sucks.. very hot, until hard to sleep.. my dear dear now should be still sleeping bah? or juz wake up to print out her things~ all the best for you ya.. ^^

a tired wednesday..

why today whole day like down down de leh? i don think i got any ma fan or not happy a, but den, really cant explain why it will be like tat.. juz now i go took my appeal form for my building construction.. dunno can i get a better result or not after appeal.. and another problem is resit.. i dun wanna resit maths leh!! i really dunno how to do it.. some more i never like to do those question that i dunno.. how to get a pass woor? although la im really got some improvement in giving out effort if compare with last time but now.. still feeling not enuff..

2moro again another day wanna go for class at 8am, wtf sleep also not enuff sleep adi still need go out at tat damn early times.. my maths tutorial havent finish up also lor.. so pity me..really still got lot of things need to do a!! head gonna burst adi now.. juz start sem only adi so busy.. assignment some more havent start to do yet.. 2moro eileen will be here bcuz need to out for dinner with her "head" at nite..tonite must do something 1st before i sleep.. need study at least something, cannot be blank today !!

result released! but.. damn it !!

haih today finally my 1st sem final exam de result release out jor.. i tot can aim for at least one A de, but.. sure will end up with no A at all.. english, and building construction also i both aim for A or either B la.. now, english only get B+, sad adi lor some more my build con only get C+ wat the hell la tis kind of result? i'm adi moody for almost one whole day adi.. today dunno why so many things come find me all together.. my brain adi got somethign inside still thinking and turning.. now got some more result,and some other personal problem.. skul fees also late pay, need pay fine rm5.. here comes my sorry to my dear dear, sorry for being down face to you almost whole day, make u also moody adi.. sorry, and thousand sorry again.. hopefully 2moro i can be like normal again bah~ why why why parents will never satisfy with their child's result de a? last time in utar i onyl get gpa points 1.1 or 1,2 like tat only.. now i adi can get 2.2 like tat, at least got improvement, but they still seems like, very damn unsatisfy with it, they say, nag, scold.. why din do more exercise? why exam so many times adi still will fail? like blame everything on me.. during the exam week, i really got study some more until din sleep straight go exam u noe? but they juz cant see.. aih~ disappointed to myself why im so lazy and stupid?!!!! now is 2nd sem adi, hopefully i can keep my hardworking until the end of tis sem, den continue having improvement.. if can, i hope can get some company's or wat wat shit scholarship to go overseas after my diploma course, bcuz i noe, my dad wont afford to send me there few years.. maximum also juz few months only.. so i dun wan to burden them anymore.. i adi wasted their money a lot, same too wasted my own time..

my dear's result around 3.6, she was too good for me, but so far she still not satisfy with it also bcuz her english only get B+.. she need to get an A de leh.. haih~ feeling sad for her too.. dunno how her parents giving her comments leh? jzu now sms until half den suddenly stop d, dunno izzit fall asleep liao or wat else.. time to sleep adi also la, juz done some of my notes.. 2moro class at 8am, need awake early.. after tis passage goona sleep d lor.. nite nite ya.. lot of presentation is coming,same too midterm test la, tis la tat la..

and today im really beh song for someONE saying me do work very "cincai".. im not cincai, i do everything also very serious. juz we got not enuff time to do really according to dimensions.. since teacher also said no need according to scale adi wat for still do until so nice? in 20minutes need pass up a drawing, if in exam, u can pass up on time at least u get marks.. if u still stubborn wanna do until nice nice if end up eith not enuff time? wat do u expect? sure la cannot pass up and will fail!! at least i draw something even not nice, but i get marks!! right? 2moro need go bank do my skul fees thigns again haih~ kinda wasting time and money.. take taxi go bank den need back skul for class.. 8am-9pm, wat the hell of timetable is tis?

specially for someone..

dunno how to start this passage so juz bla something shit here 1st bah.. yesterday me and my lou po went sg wang with Evan to find yeeping.. yeeping wanna go there to shop for a shoe.. we take taxi to there and end up with rm10.. but its quite ok also la at least no need stand and no need waste time by taking taxi.. hehehe, my dear had bought one beg.. and also i had bought a small gift for fai lin since i owe her b'day present.. she shout shout there at nite.. walao! regret to make her shout.. and after we take our lunch in esquire kitchen that time, evan suddenly take out a topic to ask me and eileen, den i accidentally said something wrong, but its only play play wan la, den i realise, her face has changed,so scare tat time fast fast say sorry.. later on i tot its ok adi wan nothing will happen wan, manatau when reach home.. haih, she had drop her tears again.. make me woried for her all nights long.. until finally she told me wat had happen.. then only i can comfort her until she fall sleep.. sweet dream to her bah~ bcuz saturday morning, means now, she have to go attend her society things at Bukit Jalil there.. hmm, wish her all the best and take care lor.. if not bcuz of no seat adi sure i will go wan.. 2moro is the day we go for the "cheap plak" concert at bukit jalil .. hopefully everything goes right today la.. no more tears no more unhappy.. any problem also got its own way to solve de.. so must tell me o if got anything..
yeah, time to sleep again luu.. byebye everyone ^^

and here comes my apologize to ms. gintee.. feel so sorry for it bcuz we all ffk u at last minutes.. hope u can forgive us all yea, next time i ask them treat u eat sushi king replace back ^^

update,beware of thieve!!

hmm, its had been some time i never post anything here adi.. now only update it, paiseh a! hehe.. tis few days a lil bit down and moody.. some thing is disturbing my mood and my mind.. i dunno should i juz let it go..i'm not encourage her to join, i really dun wanna take risk.. later if she getting busy and busy again den how a? this sem the timetable adi like shit wan, some more need to be busy.. haih~ later sleep also cant sleep well..
and according to the title, me here really got a lot of thieves leh.. last time house juz kena break in.. actually not break in leh, the thieves come into here by using KEY!! wtf!!! den 2laptops and one hp stolen, now is my frens turn the ori NIKE sport shoe stolen again.. its only gal's size la, only 6 1/2 inch long her foot.. really got gals' de thieves meh? where is all the moral go in the world nowadays? tonight will be my lonely nite.. i dun wan to have any disturbtion on me today, except for her.. i juz like my dear's disturb~ i wanna hide inside my room whole day and whole nite.. 2moro again 8am's class.. den study 2hours jiu done adi. wat the hell la this kind of timetable..

aih~ dunno how to describe my heart now~ juz feeling something was goes wrong.. like 15 tong 7 up and 8 down like tat.. today another rainy day again.. mayb bcuz of this lor make my mood went bad!! sleep sleep till half suddenly raining.. den i tot someone was not at home, den i walk out to check and see, really gek sei me lor!! he rather to playing dota there also never care about his own bed.. rain so heavy also dun wan to go inside room and close up the windows.. like tis few steps only also wan me to do for im!! how many years old adi a? treat me as your maid meh!! i will never do tat again in coming days.. i will juz let it be wet.. also not my bed,so non of my business.. today is the last day of the sushi king's promotion.. my dear dear finally had went to eat there.. but me.. haih~ at 1st wanna go eat with evan and gintee they all de but all also ffk at last minutes.. everyday keep eating like no need money like tat.. although is promotion but also no need eat until like tat de maar~ speechless lor..

pityful me,moody day

last nite is my father's b'day in chinese calendar i think.. den he had booked few tables to treat ppl eat lor, but all also juz my relatives laa.. HAPPY BIRTHDY TO MY DAD,MAY YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE..
yesterday, means 4 oct is my special day.. 4th in every month is special day for me.. it is very important for me~ but that 3 oct nite i had forgot to do something, this is my fault, i admit.. but yesterday.. i really did remember about it.. but then later when reach home, go bombom go do tis do that .. den finally, i fall sleep and i planned to complete up my "special mission" on today morning juz after i wake up.. i had set my alarm at 8am.. but i failed to wake up on time.. i sleep until 11++.. den once i wake up, i see the sms den i know, oh god!!! i had really done a big mistake.. i had made my dear unhappy, make her sad and disappointed on me~ sorry.. but once i read the msg, i replied her.. she adi.. dun wan choi me.. i whole morning also thinking the way, wanna tum her back... wanna make her smile.. but i know, i failed.. sms she din reply me.. call de hua, i scare also she dun wan answer.. den juz sent her bubble talk lor.. hopefully she got listen to it lar.. den msn there.. many many things is really hard to describe by words la.. haiz, "zong zi" tis time i really "dua diao" adi ... T.T i wanted to replace back everything.. juz hope that she would juz smile once again.. juz once, den i can fang xin adi.. lunch havent eat yet, dunno wat to eat.. no mood to eat too..

wat a boring friday

juz back from my 2d1n ipoh trip last nite.. went back to visit my grandma and see see my cousin all those laar.. den yesterdy back adi actually quite tired de but den chat chat har the tired feeling dunno fly to where adi.. den talk until midnite only go oioi.. yesterday ar, really let me shock until, more "ci gek" den playing the solero on genting lor.. almost wanna die liao.. haha, but leave it as secret la wat actually happened.. today tot wanna wake up at 11am den go out eat breakfast de, since so skinny must eat more to replace back the fat that suppose to be in my body.. but den, my phone ring on 1230 like tat.. walao!! overslpet jor.. but nvm la, since is holiday can sleep as much as i can.. if not later start study and go back wangsa there sure cant sleep much adi de, must study hard.. i dun wan to let anyone LOOKING DOWN at me.. i dun like !!!

last nite suddenly talking somethign about my cousin, elder than me one year.. he had done his foundation in UCSI den contionue for degree in engineering lor.. den after dunno one or 2 sem like tat he cannot follow up, den he decide to chaange course.. from my parents, i know that my uncle very damn angry den scold him kao kao~ actually wat i wanna say is, no one dun wan themselves to become engineer ar wat wat professionlist de.. but it also need to depends on wat quality they got de ma,, i noe, some ppl said "why some other else can be engineer but u cant?" den i will give tat answer "at least some others also be beggar outside there and some others being bad boy but im not beggar,same for bad boy!" i really dun understand, why some of the parents will want their child to follow the road that they had planned for them? izzit tis is the best for the child? i dun think so, mayb it will be a yes for SOME la.. i means some of the child..

den they talk talk talk until burn until my side.. i never do anything wrong also still kena nag nag nag nonstop really feeling like why dont i become a deaf?!! at least no need annoyed by those mafan things' this term at least i got really go and study my notes, study as much as i can while examing.. but wat the problem is juz they cant see.. so they bull-shitting there say me neber work hard.. but i have !! i really give out my effort although is not much but at least im trying to change myself, changing my attitude!! i need some positive cmments from parents but not negative wan laar pls!! tat time make me feel so unhappy.. but nvm la.. juz let it pass, all the parents lso worried for thier child wan, i can understand my parents' feeling.. i had make them disappointed on me since last year so i have to replace back everything for them from now on!! work hard!!