没心情的一天

昨晚开始不知道怎么了，上课上到一半的时候
我的心情在哪突然之间down了下来～很down那种
生气不是生气，不爽也不是不爽～我也不知道干嘛～
原来我的脸真的臭得可怜～我还以为很正常而已
哪里知道一回到家，我家的人都问我，什么事情？
干嘛那张脸好像要杀人打架似的～我也不知道为什么
我每个月，都会来也一两次的～可怜的坏习惯～
为什么呢？没什么大事情可以让我脸臭那么久啊～
原本还以为睡觉起来就没事情了，可是～到现在～
我的心都好象是酸酸的～什么东西都不想管～
休息不够？也不是啊？我昨晚的睡眠很足够一下

等下有要去上课了～真的很讨厌下午的课～
因为昨晚我的脸黑的事情搞到eileen都不要理我了
晚上我sms过去他都没有回复～到今天，现在～都没有
在生气吗？还是真的很忙？还是不要理我了？
其实，有些问题真的存在于我的脑海里面很久了
我觉得我自己改变了，变到很小气～变到很，不可理喻吧
如果你们发觉到我变成了什么样子，告诉我嘛～
还是因为最近考试来临了，压力变大了～
我也变得没有那么开心开朗了呢？考试～唉～
想到考试就烦恼多了一堆～这个学期还要resit数学
还有这个学期还有一个structural study要考～
这两个都是可以给我死翘翘的算术科目！！
我要怎样去考啊？我真的很不想迟人家一年毕业啊！！

很对不起自己，对不起父母的感觉～
他们辛苦工作回来的钱给我读书～
给我吃给我花～我要什么有什么～
可是偏偏的他们想要的我却给不了他们～
我真的很坏吧？很败家哦？他们只想要全部及格而已
可是我连这个最基本的要求都达不到～
想回去，真的很可怜～很不好受～很伤心

excel is pissing me off!

Fark!! tis is only wat i can able to shout it out now!!
my nitez and my sleeping time is messing by the excel stuffs
how come i never learnt it before?
how come im tat stupid until dont even know how to use it?
how come i always do last minutes works?
how come even is a bit easy correctioning also i dunno?
hell la!! some more, haiz, today many things did happen~
im really in a bad mood now and sleepless drive me crazy!
2moro some more morning got class but then nevermind tat class im not planning to go also, i rather than sleeping or continue doing my stuffs also i dun wanna go for the class for nothing!
saturday is dateline but why i havent done my stuffs yet?
well, 2moro sure kena scold kao kao la~

a hopeless week

LOL.. tis week dunno why for me is really so hopeless.. everything come in just the same time.. assignment due date, midterm test, everything also coming back to me on just the same moment.. im breathless now and i really do need some relaxation.. i hate to do assignment.. i rather than to have more midterm test.. at least it can force me to study while assignment im just happy go lucky.. it is really no use and no help in my studies.. although it is true, it is easy to get marks.. but wat i want is not just marks, i need some real and useful knowledge in my life.. i cant wasting my life anymore.. seems like so no mood to start study only.. now adi is my week9 in this semester.. another 5 more weeks im gonna face my final exam again and well, this time again i have to resit my maths paper, it is already last chance for me if still get fail again, im really fucking die! need to repeat the whole subject.. why? why i just cant pass through tis? maths isn't that hard right?

luckily, tis weekend can spend some time in kampar.. hopefully it can relax down my mind which is really full with tension now.. okay, someone mayb see my face still hehe haha everyday and wont feel i got any tension or pressure.. ok fine, wat i can tell u is u are wrong.. my tension and pressure i wont show it up on my face.. argh!! i tot now student should enjoy their life, but then why i seems not so enjoyable? kinda of wasting time now and also lack of cash.. i need some cash.. but then i got no time to work also.. wat the!! at 1st can have some way to earn easy money but now the chance is away from me.. so, i just can eat myself.. problems again appear on me.. the date is getting closer and closer.. i have got a plan but just dunno izzit really can work or not.. i think~ mostly should be a NO from her ba~

a tired nite

tommrrow means saturday, later, 8am i will be having my midterm test for the measurement II but then i dunno wat is it talking about at all so now, haiz doing my last minutes preparation lor.. just now luckily sheng loong told me tat he got some tips for me so i fast fast go his home copy back~ hopefully 2moro the question will be the exactly same with wat i copy just now lor if not den i die kao kao again~ haiz~ why why? why i have to get my marks by using all these kind of bad ways? why i cant just start study from the beginning and then get the marks by a proper way?

lol, every student is like this, every student like to do last minutes works.. no one excepted! but then also no need tat last minutes mar~ me 2moro after exam some more need back home.. i scare if later i fall asleep in train or in bus den i die lor.. dunno need how long time only can reach home~ hmm, tired.. and sleepy too.. hope can go sleep now but cant.. regretting.. why i become so lazy? and useless!

its been quite a long time i never been blogging here~
haha know why? bcuz nothign much happen in between~
dunno wat i have to post but then finally i decide to write something up here, about my own feeling in this few days recently~
my another midterm test is just around the corner, tis saturday~
i havent revise everything yet lor, dunno how i will die this time, i dun hope i get anymore fail in this sem.. second year adi every paper also so heavy for me.. breathless!!
tis few days not really in mood dunno why~
just hope to be alone and dun wanna to talk~
but luckily today ok a bit adi, so now its ok jor~
and also finally i have my haircut with my fren, so my hair no longer like a bushes of grass and no need to wear cap to skul anymore, its freaking hot wearing a cap!
well, my ptptn loan havent bank in to me yet also, i scare to back home adi later my parents keep asking for tat! i really dunno hwo to answer.. the stupid ptptn department, why cnt they just pay us on time? if someone really need the money so much den how?
next two weeks, means 25 of july i will be at kampar again so, its xinyi bday have to go there find her celebrate lor.. since she came KL find me few times adi, its time for me to sacrifice a bit back to her la.. but train ticket also i havent buy yet.. dunno how

now my brain still full with some problems that i dun willing to face it, its bcuz i dunno how to solve it den only will be the best way for both side.. i dun wanna make any wrong decision on that matter anymore, i dun wan let ppl talk anything bad on me!

finally, its adi week 7.. so fast! i not even start study anything of it
2moro will have my 1st midterm test for Legal Studies
until now i also havent done my studies yet feel so tired now..
even study continue also no use, cant get into brain also.. so hope 2moro can awake earlier to continue study wat i havent done lor~
now ah wai is holidaying so he came find me for few days~ just went jalan alor for dinner, wat the hell dam expensive lor eating there~ but nvm lar, not often also..
haiz, when done legal studies, den continuous got assignment will keep coming up, building services lar, den until the measurement la.. haiz, die lor~ so soon final is coming to me