huh? i got no past.. same too i got seems like no future wor? just nopw chatting with my fren and so suddenly i noticed that my future was not bright.. result not good, no good image, no good condition.. i langsung tak ada "quali" to go for her parents.. i know, i'm bad enuff~ so suddenly i feel disappointed.. i'm really hope can out with you, but then, hmm.. our relationship seems like underground.. its hard.. but nvm, no matter how hard, same too i will still be there for you..
im thinking about one Question.. big big question marks was inside my head.. later ask ask huey yee and see how should i do.. should i go ahead to her mum? or i should just do nothing and let her mum treasure out by herself? i;m not scare, i will never scare not even to die.. i just worry that, her parents will be disappointed on her, dun wanna talk to her, dun wanna choi her after i go talk to them~ tis is wat i had experienced before when im in form4.. at 1st my parent know i got gf and keep sms-ing until my result drop, they very angry, and gave me all the responses that i listed above.. i just scare my dear to getting 难过 only.. haiz, do wat also need to think so much... wat the....

moody day

haiz, dunno why this few weeks recently really miss my home a lot.. dunno why.. last time when i just come out to stay here den i fell waahh!! very very happy lor.. but den now? haiz.. i really hope can go back home.. i wanna go back home T.T
i just back from my home yesterday.. and den actually that week i not suppose to back home de, but when i know tat my parents ask me back, im so happy~ den x'mas, at 1st also i plan wanna go out countdown with lester them but now.. haiz juz wanna to go back home and sleep onlylor.. but kesian nya my parents not at home, they go my relatives house overnite there.. haih den where should i go? where actually i'm belong to? stay wangsa maju here? or go back one nite, den x'mas tat day come back here again? lonely x'mas.. really lonely.. no place to go, no one to be with~
tonite need to burn midnite oil again bcuz 2moro need to pass up assignment, that stupid drawing things.. i hate it so so so much !! so many things need to draw.. dunno wat time only can sleep.. T.T hmm~ i'm wondering why today im so in bad mood lor.. tat reason? me myself also not sure izzit bcuz of it..

who am i actually?

yes well, i believe that every of you who view tis blog know my name is weishioun.. but actually how much ppl in the world know that i'm actually alife in the world? my life seems to be very bad.. hmm! keep going going and going for nothing..fail and fail and fail but gain nothing.. my brain izzit filled with grass har?

some times i will think tat, if suddenly M'sia got earthquake.. den i die liao in one day, anyone will come and pray me a? tis question, i think need to wait until that day reach on me only i will know, but know also no use, no chance to said thank you adi..

some times feeling so lonely.. seems like i got not much frens.. not much frens when i really need them, need their help or watever.. blog is the only way that i can write as much as i can, write watever i want and i think and i like .. who knows mayb one day in future my blog full adi, or kena band by government bcuz some of the sensitive issue that i wrote here before..

now, some more petrol decrase price.. until rm1.80/L but izzit means that our inflasion rate will be going down? i don't think so!! wtf increase then one shot up 78cen but decrease slowly decrease, 10cen? 15cen? we are not BEGGAR!!! fine, stop those useless talking.. haiz.. moody to revise anymore.. wat are you doing there? i'm missing u so much.. but, dunno lar.. mayb u cant feel it.. bcuz u are busying for your preparation for test.. all right, time to stop.. wanna go out wlak walk.. get some fresh air, hope my mood will be better after tis

hate test!!!

haiz, dunno why i will so hate the test that come to us.. everytime when test is arrive, sure something will happen in us.. my "us" means me and eileen.. last time she black face to me bcuz of coursework, but luckily, its will be allright soon juz after i apologized for my wrong..
but now, 2moro is the technical drawing test.. at 1st at skul she got everything, means every question paper and also drawing for those whcih teacher gave us previously as practical de.. den today dunno how and why one of the question is missing and den i found it from wei ling.. means someone mis-took or mis-put to the wrong places lor.. den i go find her, i wanna return drawing to her den shun bian ask back the question paper from her.. den i fast fast run back take all the photo to send to me dear.. some more she do wrong for her drawing liao.. she told me tat it is a mistake that she shouldn't do de..so she is very some more not happy.. but i know she is not happy and very fan nao during this time,im still trying my best to comfort her down.. taking risk to scold by her but nvm.. as long as she can recover back her mood.. i juz dun wanna to see her down, dun wanna to see her not happy.. in this world dun have any bf that rather to see his lovely gf angry or not happy also never comfort de ma, rite?

but wat i get back from her is juz a "shut up" ... haiz.. dunno wat to do liao.. so sad now to see her not happy like tis.. mayb? i should juz let her not happy finish den everything will be ok again, but im really cant do such things.. why things like going to be my fault ler? tat question paper is dunno how can fly until to wei ling there de,i really did keep every of her things properly before she go back at skul today.. but she said she will never believe anything that done by me again.. i just really wanna to help, but then dunno how and why tat paper missing.. den im the one kena blame jor.. T.T.. moody .. suan lar, haiz.. no mood study liao, 2moro test if i fail den fail bah..

我不忍心看着她不开心而帮不上任何的忙。。我真的只是一心想帮她搞好这问题。。但是。。我该如何去帮呢？我该做的都已经做了。。可是看起来没有任何的效用。。

伤心中

finish luu!!

this week friday will be the last test that i got.. today is thursday rite? so after today's presentation den everything will be fine.. 2moro de technical crawing got a bit worrired la, but still not so worried also.. heard from senior that it will be basic things wor? dunno is true or not also de.. fully coursework marks leh, if cant do well den can die lor.. pity me dun wanna to get fail anymore lor.. haiz~! my dear also happy de i think,bcuz finally done all the midterm test den can no need ao ye adi.. den can sleep more, get more enough rest.. since this few days we both also cant rest much bcuz of presentation lar, test lar tis la and that la.. but friday still got another assignment need to pass up lea? but nvm.. can copy ppl's wan it is just maths.. but i wanna to try by myself 1st before i refer to ppl's answer.. never try never know..
argh!! pity me lor.. so early wake up adi prepare for my presentation later.. need to memorize so many things but i think i cant do it bah? later cna take paper out de mar, den when forget adi juz refer back to paper lor.. ^^ anyway, all the best to myself and eileen~ and every of my group members la..

sei lor!! exam week !!

haiz izzit too bad luck for me huh? juz done my coco day in saturday den sunday tot wanna to rest a bit but monday, means today got test.. some more tis week got 4 test is waiting for me lor.. haiz until now also i havent finish up my build con de notes.. hopefully can finish it on time before the test start bah~ 2moro got another test which is building material again.. den wednesday got building services again den thursday or friday got technical drawing.. walao !!! sei lor..
last nite tot wanna to study at 2am like tat de but suddenly no electricity so cant study.. den i call my dear, she also decide to sleep again den 5am only awake to study.. but den after i fall asleep den only she text me said she cant sleep den continue study.. until 5 i wake up only she go sleep.. she are far more better than me, she almost done for her notes, but den i scare she got no time to study den i awake her up but never reply.. hmm~ worrying for this test, although it is not take much marks in final exam.. but still worrying~~~ all the best for me and her bah!! gambahteh

muahaha ^^ happy day

wednesday dunno why so suddenly fai lin plan wanna to go genting for dinner when thursday nite.. haha listen until i so siok lor.. den i said yaya i wan follow too.. since chee man come fetch us, so its ok la the time will be free.. but at 1st i tot juz up when 8pm like tat den 12am can reach home de.. but den evan finish working late so we have to delay the time lor.. den we reach there around 10pm bah after looking for a parking for quite a long time there.. finally we parked the car den start to find things to eat.. hahaha, so unbelievable i will do that kind of crazy things also lor.. go up all the way juz for a dinner ler!!
when i go skul on thursday morning rite den only i ask eileen wanna go along or not bcuz she will got meeting at skul after class, means 6-8pm den i see the time is juz nice mar, den i ask her wanna to join bor.. so unexpected.. hehe she wanna to go too..when we reach there 1st thing we gonna do is to find for FOOD.. walao sye ping intro us to eat buffet dinner lor, so scare got not wnuff money to bill it .. but at last we cant get to the place den we juz simply eat lor.. so damn expensive food there.. we 5 ppl eat liao 100 bucks.. after tat we go on for 2nd round,here see see there see see while passing time.. den finally, we all beh tahan adi den we go buy starbuck.. woohoo!! so long time din drink it liao ^^
den we saw quite many nice nice decoration was there for the coming x'mas.. mayb i'm gonna to be there again while s'mas eve with lester and all of them.. den at last we reach home at 1am.. hmm, so pity eileen sleeping in car.. but turning here and there bcuz of we going down from genting.. sorry dear, i tot they will be down and reach home at arounf 12am like tat.. so heart pain to see u so tired.. really sorry .. aih~ but hope too u will enjoy tat few hours.. nice to have a walk with u since we long time also never out together adi..

女子的心真的是那么的变幻莫测吗？

刚刚我们都有在做我们明天要交的英文outline，但是之后因为我还没有吃晚餐而胜隆那时候又问我要不要吃，当然我会说要啊。。所以呢我就丢下她一个人在忙了，但是那时候还好好的。。当我回来之后都还很正常啊，但是。。我不了解是为什么女生通常她们的心情那个会随着时间而起了那么快那么大的变化呢？那是后或许是因为我的误会吧 而导致了我删除错了某一篇文章。。都是我的笨惹的祸，搞得我宝贝那么不开心。。对不起哦，我已经尽了我的力去从新写过了一篇，是就是有一些的差别不过希望还是可以被接受吧。。只要是我能力范围里面能做到的我统统都会做出来。。我最怕就只是你不高兴了，而有时候你有些什么烦恼或者压力的问题你都没有说出来，打算一个人扛了，虽然我是八卦，但是有些事情的确说了出来之后会感觉到好一点。。我不要你一个人吧所有事情都背上来。。那样的话包袱会很重，会让你走的路很幸苦。。
我真的不想你烦恼或者不开心。。 我只希望你和快乐交个朋友 然后把烦恼和不开心都通通丢掉丢掉远远。。今晚你的心情再次的不好了，虽然我不知道又不确定是什么问题，但是感觉上隐隐约约我feel到了些什么似的。。所以我就倪补了我的过错。。但是呢你的心情都不好了，我又怎么能嘻嘻哈哈的过时间呢？别担心，任何事情只要你需要到我的话，i will be there for you, anytime..

状态 ： 担心中，难过

重复篇 ： 心痛 + 伤心的感觉

今天下午的时候因为学校assignment的关系，我把我和她之间都闹得很僵。。但是没有办法啦，谁叫我那么的懒惰？因为意见上的不合而导致如此的话真的很不值得。。有什么问题的话都可以好好的找办法出来解决啊，虽然是有意见上的差别但是可以调整嘛，世界上没有解决不了的事情的。。从我这方面看过去，并不是我在懒惰，因为我们都在接近最后一分钟了才来忙我们的assignment。。所以我很怕不够时间去完成，所以当我宝贝她看到我们同学的那份而觉得我们应该从中参考的时候我就有一点很怕了。。不是怕多多东西做，我是怕你太累了。。我不想看到你太累，真的都只是出自一番好意，我不要，不想，也害怕看到你太累、你迟迟睡觉，因为我知道当你睡眠不够的时候你将会很累而影响到别一天的上课。。那时候我宁愿熬夜的那个是我，反正我熬到多少点都不要紧啊，最重要是你。。我永远都把你排在我自己的上面的。。因为你比我重要很多很多。。因为我的无能而让你受尽了苦头，还要帮我收拾手尾，深得很抱歉。。
现在我才发觉到原来同一番话在不同的时候和不同的语气说出来真的有那么大的差别。。唉，现在才来后悔也已经是没有用了，太迟了，我已经有再次的让我最爱的人生了我的气。。对不起，真的，除了对不起以外我真的想不到还有什么可以说出来。。我现在只希望她能够再次的原谅我，再次的给我多一次机会。伤心吗？心痛吗？还是都有呢？今天我不允许任何人对我的打扰，除了她以外。。她-就是我所说的宝贝。。

今天在课时里面当我和你讲话的时候你的反应还有你的眼神，都清清楚楚的表明了你有多生气，所以当我看到你的眼神之后我都静静一个人坐下来写东西了。。当你惹怒了你最爱的人，之后当你和她/他说话时候，她/他 没有给你任何反应，感觉上在和空气说话一样，但是这都还不是重点！！重点是，那种心痛 + 伤心的感觉真的是非言语所能形容的痛。。现在，就算我解释了出来也未必会有人懂得我当时的那个心情。。坐立不安，睡不安稳，没有胃口啊，等等的，都一一慢慢的应验了。。现在我的这种感觉就好像心里受尽千刀万剐的那种痛。。说了，也没有人会懂得，就只有那些都曾经经历过这种情况的人才会了解到底什么才是所谓的“最痛心”，或许吧，这对我来说就像所谓的那些什么男人最痛，不过我还是男生，就只好说是男生最痛了。。唉，今晚又是我一个伤心的晚上。。对不起，我知道今天晚上里面你都还会对我恨之入骨的了，所以现在的我不期望些什么，只希望呢可以原谅我无意的过错。。

重复篇或许是和上次的那篇有些出入，但是我已经尽力写回之前的东西了，虽然我不确定是因为什么事情而让你心情不好，但是，只要我能做到的我都会为了你而做。。对不起，或许因为我的误会而导致影响了心情，很对不起，因为我的笨“成就”了那么多不必要的。。

看到一个深爱著你的人为你而改变 …
因为爱你，他收起他的顽固脾气
因为爱你，他把你的兴趣也变成是他的兴趣
喜欢一个人是没有原因的
他无悔的付出，都认为是值得的
只要能和相爱的人在一起

其实我们的身边都有一些这样的人
只是我们还没发现

最懂你的人，总是会一直的在你身边守护你
不让你有一丝的委屈
真正爱你的人
不会说许多爱你的话却会做许多爱你的事
如果你身边有这样的人的话
请你好好珍惜

常因为你的小体贴而感动
如果你一直对我好，我可能就会喜欢你
喜欢你的我，会毫不保留的付出
天真的认为有天你就会懂
女生的心很容易受伤
所以我不轻易说出口，假如期望落空了
伤心难过很不好受
总希望你先说，如果你也犹豫不决
或许我们就这样错过
再来後悔为何当初不说

摘不到的星星，总是最闪亮的 。
溜掉的小鱼，总是最美丽的。
错过的电影，总是最好看的。
失去的情人，总是最懂我的。

这世界上，每一个人都有个想要寻找的人。
这个人，错过了，就再也找不回来。
如果爱上，就不要轻易放过机会。
莽撞，可能使你後悔一阵子；
怯懦，却可能使你一辈子後悔。

没有经历过爱情的人生是不完整的，
没有经历过痛苦的爱情是不深刻的。
爱情使人生丰富，痛苦使升爱情华。

多 少 个 早 知 道 已 经 来 不 及 ㄌ
…早知道
… … …早知道
你过的不好
我不会轻易让你离开
… … …早知道
--我爱你--必须常挂在嘴边
我不会吝啬说出它
早知道
--喜欢你--必须过马路时拉著你的手
我不会介意伸出手来
早知道
--喜欢你--必须陪你逛百货公司
在百忙之中我一定抽空
早知道
--我爱你--必须在吵架时依然讨你欢心
即使错在於你 我可以颠倒是非
早知道
--我爱你--,--爱与被爱--
我不会选择--50%我爱你..50%你爱我- -
会选择--70%我爱你..30%你爱我--
因为爱你多一点 你会倍感幸福
早知道
--我爱你--是半夜你来电时必须陪你讲通宵
我不会跟你说--明天还要上班--
早知道
--我爱你--是一种支持　
我不会在你节食时.说你--无聊--
(因为你已够苗条美丽)
早知道
--你离开--後不是一种幸福
我不会成全你和他
早知道
--上天安排--你离开是一种错误
我不会让他得逞
早知道
--似曾相识--—我会趋前问清

早知道---

早知道---

早知道---
--多少个早知道--都在你离去後
跟著出来...
可是...在多的早知道都以经没有用了
都唤不回了...

请珍惜身边爱你的人