rainy day in my heart

finally,today i had let my parent know about my result for sem2 final exam.. so wat? my parent was not satisfy with it also!! since i got really give out some effort in sem2 , since i work harder than sem1,but i just got really very very very less improvement!! i'm not satisfy with it TOTALLY!! but wat to do? result adi come out,tis is adi reality!! but how come reality for me always will be too cruel? did i do something wrong in my life?? or i use the wrong method?? in sem1 final exam,i get gpa 1.000!!! tat time also i din sad like now!! bcuz i noe, sem1 i really got never study properly,so i admit,it is my fault to get such a bad result.. for me,i not believe any luck in my life!! for me,wat i get,is juz same wit wat i paid!! so i get such a bad result means i havent give out my full effort!!!
i'm really so sad for today,my papa dun wna talk to me adi, i noe he is very very sad bcuz of my shit result, but it is not wat i want too!! cannot fully blame on me.. i got work hard,everyone in skul can see it!! juz my parent cant see anything.. at least i got lil bit improvement.. it is better than nothing improve or worse than before!! nevermind la, they is my parent.. i adi noe their attitude.. so i wont blame them.. if like tis at least my heart will feel better.. at least i get some kind of punishment.. if my dad juz like nothing only.. means he wont care for me anymore even though i juz die also no use.. he wont care.. i had really let all my fren and parent feel disappointed on me.. haih, izzit i'm really so bad in studies? or i juz choose the wrong way to go? yea,mayb im not suitable for engineering.. mayb i should not choose tis way since the beginning.. but now adi finish my way at half, it is almost finish adi for my 1 year of foundation,should i juz stop like tat and go work?? and den wait for May intake in tarc?? most of my fren also said tat,i should stop now to save back my rm1026.. i hope to stop too.. but dunno how my parent feel.. i dun wna make my dad feeling not happy anymore.. i juz follow wat he want me to do now, but,he adi speechless.. he adi dun wan talk to me anymore.. T.T haih~~ talking so much rubbish here also not sure got ppl will come and read it one by one.. really hope someone can be with me and chat with me.. reduce some of my tension or stress..
2moro i got class at 8am.. but i still cannot sleep now.. i got no mood to sleep adi.. argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! help me!!! how come everyone tat i hope to chat with, also din on9?? hwo come my luck today realy so bad?? drive around speed at 80km'j also can almost bang ppl wan.. why never got any GOD of luck will blessing me of?? other ppl can get 0.5 points improve,why i cant?? ppl can get 3.2, why i cant?? he is also human, me also human!! tis world actually is not fair at all for me.. i paid out something, but i get back nothing!! May.. where are you?? i hope can chat with you now.. even to see your face.. or wat,also better than nothing~ my mood really down.. me myself also adi disappointed on myself.. me now do wat shit also got no confidence at all adi.. not even got 1% of confidence!! i hope to work now,and pay back the debt to my mum tat i loaned from her few days ago.. should i work again as promoter for rm80 per day?? or work at hp shop with my fren at rm900 per month?? or should i do sales as wat kin suggested to me?? hmm~ when ppl growing up, more and more things we need to think, and we need to analyst wat we should do.. i hate to make decision.. i hate to choose.. if i choose to stay utar,i got no future,and wasted my parent money!! if i choose to leave utar and go tarc.. i will lost all of my frenz!! i need my frens.. they are all my best buddies in utar for almost a year!! i cant imagine tat i go tacr as a new student and a whole new life there,and need to kenal again all my fren.. and all my type of kaki~ i hate to do so.. waaaaaahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! think more den im gonna become crazy !!! i hate my life!! why everything goes wrong!!

FUCK UTAR!! cibai

haih, 2day i went to PJ all the way from Balakong juz to get the student bill and my sem3 de timetable.. but when i reach at PA block,the stupid office din open!! really niama cibai !! fuck the UTAR management 1st!!
den i damn very unhappy tat time.. den i drive to another block to get my bill lor,and u noe wat they told me? they said timetable only be available on 2moro 2pm!! they juz cannot give me one day earlier meh? fuck their management again!!!
wat a damn like shit de management UTAR got!! make ppl angry only.. and result said to be announce on monday when skul re-open.. but den later when im on the way back home,jam jam jam.. den phone ring.. den fai lin told me tat result adi on the utar website
fuck the UTAR management last here!! i'm really fully giving up here, and i'm also hopeless from now tis moment!! fuck fuck fuck utar!!
but dun worry, i noe it is my fault and i wont blame anyone here!! i should be the one who responsible on my own fault!! juz now is juz for "fa xie".. now nothing adi..

tired tired!! wanna sleep

fu~~ finally im back to my own house after finish the 3days 2 nite trip to PP.. quite a nice trip.. i should thanks for kin and yong zhang.. kin's car and yong zhang's house ^^ we stay free and got transport for free too.. yea!! we went batu feringghi, gurney drive, gurney plaza, queensbay mall, autocity.. many many place la we went.. haha!! but spending money like use water.. 3 days only my rm100 gone adi.. wtf~~ so damn poor now.. haiz.. 2day again sit in bus for 4 hours plus plus.. so pain my backside.. haiz.. so tired sleep in the bus for the whole journey back to KL.. hehe!! i got quite lot of photos.. feel free den view my friendster profile la.. i will upload there.. gonna oioi jor la, nite nite.. miss u may~

tired

haih, recently dunno why everyday also feeling so damn fucking tired.. but wat to do? who ask me always sleep at 4am leh.. but dunno why i'm tired enuff to sleep, juz dunno why i cant sleep well..
juz abck from port dickson, my "wai po" house.. so damn hot there when afternoon.. sleep also cannot slepe properly.. but luckily last nite we all stay at a damn far place hotel which name "tiara beach resort".. dunno why juz simply put the name there only beach resort.. where got beach har at there?? got beach la, but is man-made beach!! WTF!! not nice at all.. no hot chicks around, not many of them is chinese too.. wat a dman boring nite at ther.. all the shop close before 12.. my lie here 12 only i gonna start it laa!! how come they close shop so early? dun have burger stall, dun have place to yam cha!! got one cafe, 100plus small small cup rm9!! niama.. kena cheat adi lor!! i wont recomend my fren stay at there anymore in the future.. i rather they choose the glory beach resort.. nearer, better, bigger, and got many more benefit than the tiara beach..
2nite i also dunno wat time only can sleep... 2moro still have to wake up early to go take bus.. im going to penang 2moro.. but i really dunno how la.. juz hope the PP trip will make me me happier than now.. i hope it will be interesting.. if not i really will vomit blood.. T.T another sad and tired day will begin soon!!

boring life again

haih, before Cny start.. im very very happy bcoz finally can balik kampung adi.. although there very boring also wan la.. but the most important is i can meet back all my cousin cousin ma.. den chat chat chat also can be very happy very nice wan.. but the happy moment always pass through me so fast.. juz left the sad and boring moment to be with me nowadays.. stay at home not as good as u all think leh.. at home can do wat?? watch movie?? finish adi.. wan shopping, but no $$$.. wanna work .. but lazy.. i always sleep till 2pm only i wake up..how to go work ohh??
cny really gone so fast,i really do nothing during tis holiday.. said wanna be prepared for my 1st sem de re-seat paper.. but till now also haven't touch anything yet.. so how?? wait die la.. how come i turn to become lazy again? wuyue, im waiting for you here.. everyday.. juz to wait for you to on9.. izzit very stupid leh?? izzit very wasting time leh?? i dunno la.. and i dun care also.. as logn as i feel it is worth.. i will do it without any thinking .. haiz, since we holiday for one month.. i really dunno wat should i do at home during tis one month.. dunno why at my grandma house there very re nao,very riuh rendah wan.. tats why i can be happy.. everyday wake up also is a brand new day for me.. but after i back my own house.. wake up,face the wall, talk to the wall, play also faced to the wall only.. noone at home can teman me.. not even got one ppl come and chat wit me..wanna go skul,but go skul do wat?? class also havent start yet..
wanna go travel at penang but date havent reach.. and i can feel tat, i will be not very happy during the penang trip.. dunno why,to tis kind of bad things my 6th sense always very zhun wan.. but for good things, it never been straight to the point.. someone can help me?? someone can teman me go gai gai go walk walk boh?? really boring until wanna die adi.. haiz~~
everyday wake up at 2pm start to sit in front of comp adi.. until 2am at nite.. wtf i doing there? chatting also not.. watching movie also not.. haih~ boring boring boring life.. sms also no body will reply me wan.. and my "zhu peng gou you" all also uselesss wan la.. eat shit la.. when they need you, they will come find u.. but when they no need you.. they wont even reply u s sms!! or even a call.. tis is not the fren tat i wan k?? diu.. but dun worry.. im juz specifically talking about some body.. not all of them la.. and the last is.. who can tell me where can get tis? the picture below wan.. i need the exact location..

GOOD NEWS!!!

hahahaha!! juz now at nite i get a good news.. finally, my waiting for you was not wasted.. finally i get my 2nd chance adi.. but got good enws, always got bad news which come together wan lor.. so sad, haih.. got another opponent..how come he always like tis wan?? i din take action,he din take action.. when i finally sound it out, u wanna be my opponent pulak, why u cannot be late a bit?? or juz simply early a bit leh?? haiz, wat to do?? tis is my faith, i have to face it.. scare is scare la, but wat to do?? have to "fight" also wat? if i give up now,i got nothing!! i cannot lose you in m world again!! you muz be in my life to let my life got rainbow, but not heavy rain everyday!! so laz year i ahd lost a very very good chance, since tat time i trying my best to treat u good good .. trying to sayang u but i got no chance to do so.. finally now, i can do it again!! dun worry i wont let u disappointed on me.. i will trying my best to give u all the best tat i have.. haih, if i wanna be selffish, i need to ask u to kick him out, since u and him adi is PAST TENSE wat, once break it can never been together again la, wat for u still wan halang me to get my xing fu? but nvm, once i tried my best even though if i will lose, i also "sam fuk hau fuk" lor.. as long as i try adi, and i wont regret.. and i also wont let myself to regret anymore!!! i had done a very stupid things during laz year de november.. i will forever remember tat day.. so, now i will take it as a lesson and i wont "cuo guo" any chance tat i have to be with you!! gambateh!!
juz now ping hao got fan nao.. he told me.. so i think it should not be posted here.. so i wont talk more about it la.. jzu hope tat u can really think properly, u are not small boy anymore.. should be can do your own decision.. if got anything else u can find me anytime.. since u and me is FnF in the digi number, haha!! so no need scare la, sms only 1cen. call also juz 10cen.. i will be with you anytime when u need me.. YIAK!! since when i learn this kind of things har?? ping hao is boy leh!! cannot use tis kind of sot sot word wan.. fen will always be with you whenever u need them.. so 2moro u still got class la.. sleep early bah.. haih, u got class everyone also got class.. no oen teman me go pudu.. no oen can be my opponent for daytona car anymore T.T you are my sifu, i got tis result i should thx you!! hehe ^^ anyways, 2moro mayb im going out with my old geng.. hope tat i wont be jahat again when i mix wit them again.,., hope i can find i pants for myself b4 cny!! tuesday i wotn be here anymore.. so mayb i will go CC to on9 gua??! mayb only la..
May, i will try my best to treat u as good as i can,, addoil mr bear!! nite nite everyone~ ^^

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wakaka!! tonight wont be boring.. bcoz ping hao finally date me go yam cha.. at 1sts aid wanna go find jian fat.. make me terkejut only.. go until kl.. but at laz juz go his house sit sit a while.. sleep sleep a while.. watch watch movie a while.. hahaha!! den later when his fren balik rumah adi.. den only he ask den for yam cha again.. pity them~~ haih, if not i really stay at home also can "fat mou" adi lor.. luckily the cny will reach no longer, monday wanna go buy bus ticket adi lor.. wanna go penang.. haha!! really so long long time din take bus adi, dunno wats the feel leh?? wanna date ping hao out or not leh?? he still studying de leh.. later he scold me!! everyday stay at home watch drama.. every drama also let me finish adi.. even the latest wan.. haiz, astro on demand also havent finish.. i wan go shopping go play play leh!!!!! who can teman me?? all my fren also balik kampung adi.. cny?! should be happy or sad leh?? happy bcoz can play only ma.. sad bcoz angpau not much.. sad bcoz nothing to play at ipoh there.. wanna clubbing also sure damn expensive wan.. no $$$ better stay kl here and go find ping hao them.. can go every where play play.. juz hanging around.. nowadays always acnnot sleep at early leh.. dunno izzit bcoz i always sleep to late until all the timetable change adi