failed

haiz today just got my tamadun e-test again.. den i just get 34 marks only lo.. mayb bcuz i study not enuff bah, a bit sad ler when i get to know my result.. and today kena shoot by the admin officer when im gonna pass up my ptptn loan form.. he said me why everything havent being certified yet wor.. kanasai like tat also kena shoot by ppl.. unbelievable.. now, just finish to start reading my science for building notes only.. hopefully before my midterm test can finish study it lar.. so many formulae need to be memorize and use to it..

late nites adi but still cant sleep yet.. dunno wat im waiting for.. studying? i dont think my brain can put in anything anymore.. so better just sleep bah.. 2moro 8am got class again.. haiz sad

why?? why why?

why ppl will only be remember me when they are really alone or lonely? when they are not alone den wat i'm consider as? a toy? it is really make me disappointed u know?? wat u said today is totally different with wat u said few days ago.. why can change so fast? bcuz u are alone now tats why only u will think of me? ya.. in my mind, it should be like tat.. im speechless adi.. nothing to talk with u anymore.. ppl help u u never appreciate it never fast fast go list down wat u need.. but then another day coming when pplk sleeping den u keep asking ppl for tis and tat, don't u all know tat i most hate ppl disturb me when im sleeping?

mood down?

saturday afternoon i went back to ipoh again to pray my grandpa for ching ming.. tat day afternoon is damn hot lo.. but den drive till half way den raining so heavy.. hard t drive also lo almost cant see the road but finally reach home safely.. haiz 2moro im gonna have another test again.. tamadun melayu!! sei lor havent revise finish also.. dunno how will be when 2moro.. although i got listen wat teacher teach but seems like im still blur for it..

at 1st zellent they all said wanna to come find me when tuesday nite but since evan they all got test on wednesday so i decide to delay it to wed nite only let them come lo.. tat nite, they ask me to go join them to connaught nite market again.. since me adi long time never been there jor so mayb i will join la, depends on tat day de mood and see tired or not lo..

mayb bcuz of tired, today i whole day no mood play or even study for 2moro test, i juz able to done half of the 100% revise until now.. hopefully 2moro i can awake earlier to study everything again lo.. i dun wanna to die le, the most easoest to get coursework marks for me in tis sem's subject.. hopefully can score back 44 marks as before.. thx god, blessing me bah and also bless me can get my loan soon~

a bad luck day, wtf?!

today after class around 3pm i'm rushing back to my house all the way from wangsa maju to balakong here.. but too bad once i get into the bus den start to rain adi.. i most hate rainy days when im taking public transport bcuz it will cause traffic jam.. and it is dam fucking jam.. from jalan silang until time square tat short distance of road we all spent one hour + in the bus.. wtf!! normally the distance can be done within 15 minutes! wasting my time.. im not rushing back for nothing lo, i need go back my secondary skul there find teacher to ceritfy something for me lo, but then when i reach skul adi is 630pm.. teacher juz close the office door den she asked me to come again on 2moro morning.. haiz, waste time waste petrol.. some more im really "flying" to kajang juz after i reach home.. by speed of 160..

den at nite when i back home evan suddenly called me said i borrow how much from the house rental.. i said 160 lo, i only took 160 mar, but then i dunno wat had happen there.. bcuz as they said is the sum of money not correct.. but im only juz borrowed 160,50 for my resit bills and 100 for my one week's expenses.. when i back there on sunday nite i will replace back everything lar.. but dunno why suddenly seems like so big case.. dunno how much cash had disappeared den fai lin and lester also called me again.. but when i sms lester he never reply.. im worrying for wat had actually happen there? but too bad, no one bother me.. haiz sad lo.. msn no reply, sms no reply.. don't they think me im the thieft den can adi.. i WILL NEVER STEAL anyone's belonging include cash.. if i need, i juz ask them to borrow only lar.. even i took lester's bus ticket also i got pay him back into his wallet a? make me cant really fall sleep to nite, keep thinking wat had happen.. everyone also dun wanna to say dun wann tell me~

loan stuff again !! Grr!!

so suddenly i saw the sklul notice board had pasted up something about the loan stuffs.. 1st of april is deadline again but the stupid asshole office ppl never inform anyone, just let we go and see.. if i never see then how? stupid la at least tell the class rep to inform us about the news lar.. some more they do thigns really slow lo! niasing... i wan print back my 1st sem result den they ask me wait one week to 2 weeks.. tat time wat for i still need for the result slip? no brain!!

luckily 2moro i can back home adi.. 2moro once reach home den need go find yuhua skul de teacher sign something for me adi lo.. monday need pass up adi dun wan to get it delay anymore if not my 5000 dung goh sui liao.. haiz later sure kena shoot wan if never get the loan! tis weekend back ipoh again.. aih~ so busy.. havent finish study my tamadun also.. again at monday got test.,.

清明时节雨纷纷

huh~ every days in this week seems like every nite sure gonna rain wan lo.. some times even rain from nite till the next morning.. too bad make ppl feel so cold.. some more such a good day to sleep but pity me still need to go skul for class.. 2hours class.. !!@#$%&*

and tis weekend im going back ipoh again for ching ming.. sunday morning go pray pray my grandpa.. hmm, not really like feeling wanna back actually bcuz last two week juz back to celebrate my grandma b'day there.. one month back so many times~ break record adi lo.. and hopefully tis time can eat lot of things there bah.. bcuz tat day discuss with my cousin they all.. we wanna to out for nice dishes around ipoh town.. haha, 20 years old adi but never taste any nice dishes there before.. bad hor?

saturday again got replacement class.. should i go for it? or juz back my home on friday after skul? bcuz friday nite im planning to meet up with zellent.. cannot simply FFK him lar, later he angry adi hor den fly back to philipine adi, haha!! hopefully can see quite many of them in tis week.. next week again another E-test for tamadun melayu! wat the hell lo.. always i back ipoh den will got tis test tat test...

挪威的森林 (1996爱情的尽头) 曲∶伍佰 词∶伍佰

让我将你心儿摘下
试著将它慢慢融化
看我在你心中是否仍完美无暇
是否依然为我丝丝牵挂
依然爱我无法自拔
心中是否有我未曾到过的地方啊
那里湖面总是澄清
那里空气充满宁静
雪白明月照亮大地
藏著你不愿提起的回忆
(藏著你最深处的秘密)
你说真心总是可以从头
真爱总是可以长久
为何你的眼神还有孤独时的落寞
是否我只是你一种寄托
填满你感情的缺口
心中那片森林何时能让我停留
或许我 不该问 让你平静的心再起涟漪
只是爱你的心超出了界限
我想拥有你所有一切
应该是 我不该问 不该让你再将往事重提
只是心中枷锁该如何才能解脱

busiest day

hmm, juz done my BM Lanjutan assignment juz now.. wat the fcuk is these kind of stupid assignment.. BM in spm also get Credit adi la, still need go for those stupid class.. so many years never really do or use BM now suddenly have to use back, everything also forget jor lar! so dam hard to finish it up.. make me whole day busy juz after i woke up around 12pm.. until now never get rest properly.. haiz!

and too bad tis week Zellent had back from philipine, and they are celebrating Edmond's birthday that are coming soon.. but wat to do ler, so sorry about tat i cant attend it.. Sorry edmond, and everyone.. Zellent always wanna give us surprise.. but tis week im not going back.. so if they told me earlier mayb i can back lar, at home still same can do assignment also mar.. an early wish to Edmond Wong, happy birthday ya! im gonna replace it for u later~ sry again..

and , hahaha my hair had juz change colour again, tis time i so like the colour, it not seems briight and not too dark too.. juz under light or sunlight u may see blue blue, green green and grey a bit.. its complicated colour, but i like it.. im gonna make tis colour at my 1st choice in future.. but i think.,. within this half year im not gonna dye it anymore bah, bcuz dye too much adi, my 4th or 5th time in a year.. scare later kena brain cancer and die early.. sobs~

boring at wangsa

this is the 1st time that i never back my house on weekend since start of my 3rd sem.. really quite boring when staying here,its really nothing to do beside than study and prepare for my presentation on monday.. my dear had back her hometown just now but then she need to do quite lot of thing for our group assignment.. haiz too bad for her, need rush for tis and that.. see also not good feeling.. today really do nothing lo after back from skul.. 2moro need start do all my stuffs adi, need do maths and tis and tat~ hopefully can get pass in this resit lar, if not den sure die adi gonna repeat..

and i juz get the news tat, ZELLENT WAS BACK~ woohoo!! can see him finally.. haih so bad lor him forget us adi, so long only back once~ but luckily tis time he will stay quite long here.. so can meet him few more times.. today whole nite raining until now also still raining.. it make me turn bad mood.. i dun like rainy days~!!! wanna play some games also my computer bullying me.. cant play left 4 dead, keep jump out to windows.. argh!! all my housemate had fall sleep adi.. me 2moro morning also got class.. haiz,gonna sleep soon, bye~

grandma birthday party @ ipoh..

Happy birthday to my grandma !! Zuk lei fook yu dung hoi, sao bei nam san =D ! Last saturday we celebrate my grandma's birthday in a restaurant (forgot what name jor!) in Ipoh. All her sons, daughters, daughters-in-law, grandchildren and grade grandchildren were there to celebrate with her on last Saturday.

My grandma is so happy when they kiss her! hahahaa.. haiz me too got kiss haha but too bad no one take picture.. luckily... if not later spread out, my cousin will simply add some "words" there

My cousin is very busy hunting for his 'prey' that night. Can't stop finding chance to snap people's front view LOL. got one waitress let them take picture until not dare come near our table.. bad hor??

You see where are all the cameramen aiming.. YEA !! You're right! Both the waitress la hehee..all also hamsup guys.. hahaha.. the red shirt wan let my cousin aim zhun zhun take jor dunno how many picture..

Introducing the 19+ years old pro drinker!! Let's count how many cans he has drink hahaa.. actually we gathered all the empty cans to set up this scene for him, his father is so SHOCKED when he saw this hahaaahaa... (according to wat my cousin had posted) but actually im not lar!!

Singing birthday song + blowing candles + prezzie from grandchildren!!

Popo and her grandchildren + great-grandchildren !! siok leh so many cousins.. hahaha..

woohoo!!

just done my tamadun midtern test on monday juz now.. its so unbelievable, i can get 44/50 for the test.. my myself also so dam happy and feel is impossible.. nm la, as long as proven tat my work hard is gonna work, if really giving out effort.. soon i have to face my BM presentation adi in next week.. so many things havent done yet including the survey form!! haiz too bad no one really got the mood to do it.. and thx again here to miss $$$.. thx for teaching me maths at nite, im really feeling bu hao yi si to disturb u all for few hours.. i finally had learnt something from juz now tat 2 hours maths "tuition" lesson, thx.. too for my dear eileen, she had really encourage me to work hard, no her, no 44/50 marks for today~

but too bad juz now i saw an big big cockroach!! wtf lar!! i dam hate this kind of creatures wan lo.. not bcuz i scare,is bcuz i nsaw it den i feel very geli lo!! colour like DA BIAN de colour like tat some more so big in size.. haih, who ask me last time let cockroach climb up my leg before also dunno wat heppn, until i saw it it is adi almost reaching my lap!! walao eh dam scary!! hahah.. nitez everyone, finally can have a nice sleep now

midterm reaching..

short sem is really short.. playing times is short, study times is short, wat ever also short.. so fast my sem3 had past 3 weeks.. and 2moro onwards is week3, and 2moro i will facing my 1st midterm test for TAMADUN ISLAM.. wat the hell is tis kind of subject ya? almost same like our sejarah last time but then my sejarah i get 3B also still need continue study tis kind of usseless things.. i rather than pout more effort to my maths1.. haiz~ resit and resit, repeat and repeat.. too pity for me as a student.. week 4 got presentation, den week5 another midterm again.. den so fast, week7 have to face final soon~!! hopefully tis sem i can score wat i want bah.. its the only sem tat i may score higher points.. im moody today.. bcuz of myself.. haih, long story to tell.. next post only write about it lar.. bcuz now gonna rush finish my notes den go sleep dy

but then, finally i had choose to check for my result at last.. i did really need some helps.. for my maths.. so pls, tonight no one disturb me.. im in fully no mood now.. why why why? can i know for reasons? how come, my maths is really so sucks?!!!!!!

result is out

my sen2 result is out in tarc website from today.. but actually i sleep until almost 2pm only wake up de bcuyz my dear called me to check result for her.. but then after tat only im realize that tarc website is running dam slow.. until now also havent can get into it yet~

ppls all are so gan jiong for their result,all seems so happy after checking it.. but me? im still thinking that should i go and check for mine.. i dont think the result can make me happier after i see it lo.. i not dare to take the risk.. im really giving out effort last sem but mayb its still not enuff yet lar, but im trying hard, if result not good at all.. where should i put my confidence at? dunno why im start to be so care about my result.. normally i will never worried for it..

since dunno wat time start to be raining adi until now also havent stop.. later at nite i some more need go out for gathering, den nite a bit more go PJ find my sister, she came from kampar.. raining really makes ppl moody down down and feeling bad.. especially when date like tis, release exam's result..

hmm, so far still not able to get sleep wor? dunno why ler.. although quite tired adi since juz now go nite market with shi sin wei ling and sp's parents.. walk quite a long way but i din really buy much things there, juz to get some vege and foods as my dinner.. 2moro class dunno should i go or not.. if im not wrong it will be class at 1pm until 3pm.. after tat straight back home adi.. but still scare will raining den hard to go back home.. so i also dunno how.. i need attend class scare later wat teacher talk i dunno .. any important points also i cant get

my dear now located at johor there for her xia xiang things.. early morning adi left skul den start her long journey to johor there.. scare she will too tired? i think too much? dunno.. dun wanna know.. since got time to rest for her she will be going rest bah.. think too much also no use,rite? quite a far distance from wangsa maju to johor dunno which part.. feels got so big distance, hahaha.. but then adi not the 1st time lar, need to be used to it adi..

worrying too much is not a good thing bah, later let ppl feels more pressure bcuz of too over caring? mayb, who knows? juz finish call with her for a while.. but she seems so busy to talk with her frens den i sik do ler.. cut off den let her be enjoy bah.. nag too much later get negative effect.. one question im still wondering since last last time until now.. i still cant get an exact answer for it..

Question is, caring much will be good, or bad to someone? i cant make until myself like wat also dun care and cincai like tat.. for others den i think should be okla, but for her, i can never do tat.. im always serious in every matter tat related to her.. yah!! juz done some lil bit autocad for evan, hahaha proven tat my autocad skills so far still okok yet, juz need bit time to recall back everything.. ngek ngek ^^ nitez