回来了～～

过了好几天额假期回去wangsa读书，准备考试我的structural跟maths1～
这次是我做的最有信心的一次～不知道成绩会如何～但愿一切顺利～

希望这次最少可以及格两科～最好all pass～
那我的lastsem就不会那么的压力了～唉～不然的话等死咯
昨晚跟燕去了langat山，闹了一点笑话～哈哈～
原来我以为小云顶就是有gasoline扥那个地方～
马的原来不是小云顶是垃圾地方来的～gasoline的事叫langat山
到最后跑了一圈冤枉路才去到～不过算了吧～昨晚老板娘没心情
就陪陪她看看怎样咯～唉，我这个做哥的还真有点失败～那样子都安慰不到人家

今天还是在office呆着。。做工～不然的话我早在家大觉睡了咯～
刚才log in了我的面子书～看到很多人突然间变成in relationship去～
看到傻眼了，不知道今天是不是大好日子～哈哈～看回我自己还是一个人
不知道做么没有那个想恋爱的感觉了～虽然一个人是很可怜下啦～
可是，或许真的很累了吧～每天做工，还要准备考试，还要读书～唉～
这样的生活好想快点可以结束～回复我的学院生生活～在家读书睡觉

做做下工会突然间觉得有点emo去～什么问题哦？傻了啊？还是气妈根了？
灯下放工之后快快回家休息下先，下午还要过去wangsa搬家～带东西回来～
之后再跟lester他们去kepong吃晚餐～之后再去找白佬借notes下才回家～
希望今晚不回到很迟吧，不然又要被人家碎碎念了～
唉，还没找到房子，有点开始担心+烦恼了～五月十号开始，我就要回去了
因为朋友叫我做streamyx的promoter～所以要早点回去那边～可是，没房子住
难道要我睡在街上啊？唉。。到底我要什么？干嘛我那么不清楚我自己！

感慨人生喜怒无常～人无百日好

今天做工的时候做到一半～突然间听到风声，说site出了意外～scaffoldings倒塌了下来～
有人从六楼跌下来当场死亡！听到之后都不是很确定，但愿是我自己听错
虽然他跟我没关系～可是毕竟也是人一个，有感觉的～后来看到老板脸色变了
才知道我没听错！唉，真的是人生喜怒无常～不知道自己几时会走～几时会留下

今天好好的，明天就不在了～前一分钟跟你开玩笑，下一分钟就离你而去了
今天的甜甜蜜蜜，可能明天就是一把鼻涕一把眼泪了～
命运，总是喜欢把人们玩弄于股掌之中。。人家奉公守法，用劳力换取金钱
为什么他会有这样子的命运？可是那些社会败类，被抓了之后还是无罪释放
听了之后自己越想越多东西～为什么我总是不会好好的珍惜现在？难道我要死了才后悔？
我每天都是今天推明天，明天推后天～结果考试就来要到了！我的数学，不了了之！
如果，突然间明天我死了，我的数学都还没有及格过一次，我岂不是抱憾终身？

我觉得很累了，或许我真的不是读书的材料？我也不知道～我只是知道我读书读到很累了。。但是人家都安慰我说，数学只是我人生中一个小小的考验，pass过去了就前途无量～问题是～
我现在pass不过去～我连看都不想看
随便比喻成这样吧 ， “我不喜欢吃牛肉，你叫我吃试试看，到最后我还是会呕吐，弄到自己辛苦，得不偿失。。毕竟心理的那个感觉已经深深的生根扎住了” 牛肉不好吃就好象数学我没可能pass那样子的道理。。

不管厨师如何的厉害煮，我还是不喜欢吃，不会吃，不敢吃
不管我的数学老师多好，我还是不喜欢做，不会做，不敢面对我的不会做！
我落得如此下场只可以怨自己，怪不了别人～只怪当初识错人，无心向学～
还自以为是洋洋得意不可一世～现在？报应来了～对，我是坏人，我是笨蛋，我没有，我废柴

back to blogging

well, as how the title, i had abandon my blog for quite some times.
now finally I'm free to write something here since around one month ago..
now this period i'm having my industrail training, everyday need sleep early wake early
totally different and not my style of life as before when i'm still studying in college~
so far already almost 7 weeks i working in this company.. and yet i had learned something
i had did some autocad, progress claim, quotation document, went site, BQ, and also calculating cost but i dunno izzit can consider under estimating or measurement~ some days i'm busy like hell.. yet some days im free like hell until can do my own things whole day long in office..
my boss and everyone here treat me not bad.. all also so friendly.. not like how we watch in hong kong drama that everyone will be keep looking for others' "kriptonite".. den tell boss~ but since im working, i had realize something else, but no good to telling here to every people..

very soon my exam for my resit papers will reach on me..
next week onwards is exam week.. so i'm worrying now bcuz my study mood havent fully on yet, and this sem is really a heavy burden for me to study.. everyday back home adi tired enuff no more extra time to study~ but no matter how im still need to do my 4 papers in this exam and i hope to pass it well.. i just need a PASS.. pls, god, gimme a pass.. if not, i really dunno wat else i can do for it anymore.. i did really giving out my effort..
this saturday i will be back to setapak and im not available online.. anything can just find me through phone.. hope tis time without any computer and other disturbance i can really study well and pay full attention on it.. i dun wanna get disappointed to my parents anymore !!

some of my frens adi went overseas for study, some of them went s'pore to work..
everyone is busying to have their own life.. yet, I'm the one who still wasting time and money for nothing for my own future~ haix.. dunno izzit i made wrong decision again when im choosing course.. but, if im not in this course, i wont have many frens like how i did now~ hope everything will go smooth and allright~ pray harder, it mayb can help~ even not much, at least can calm down my mind.. wish everyone who gonna resit exam soon good luck and all the best~!!

this few days not really in mood to talk or even chat..
this happened just after the exam time table was out..
hmm.. mayb i hate exam! mayb, i really hate maths so damn much !!