boring sleepless nite..

just now at nite went out yam cha with edmond and huey yee and ah wai and his frens.. today, means 12/2/09 is huey yee's birthday lo.. haha so im here to shout for her, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUEY YEE... yeah.. but we all nvr plan wanna to celebrate with her so din buy present, so paiseh, but nvm later will replace back..

actually juz now hat with them, i feel that more free.. i never got such kinda of feeling when im talking with my some other frens, and even my family members.. so? mayb we fren for so long adi den we also know each other well bah, in that NS 3 months period, we eat together,die together,sleep togetherk,play together, even pusnish also we faced it together, so we know each others all very well bah.. but unfortunately, tonite Zellent and pei yee cant have a tea with us.. bcuz of our time is clashing..

now i see back all the effort i paid out, seems like i never get back any repay in a proper way, and at least a lil bit repay that i satisfy with it.. nope, it never happen on me? wondering why.. i keep it up for so hard, but sure will end up with nothing.. izzit the timing is wrong? i shouldn't have these all while in tis age? dunno.. no answer.. as sharry said in her blog. yea, im agree with her.. no matter how and when, some times, deep in the nite, suddenly awake or cant fall sleep.. deapest part of my heart will still feeling lonely.. bcuz everyoen also fall sleep jor lo, no one can talk to me, chat with me.. mayb i should turn back my life to the normal bah.. ppl sleeping i working, ppl working pulak i sleeping.. always kena say by parents.. aih, juz now chat with fai lin a while d, so feeling better.. everything was also clashing and shining inmy brain.. i cant really fall sleep so juz on my computer again den blogging a while lo.. the problem that i faced, fai lin adi told me juz now.. LOL, she ask me to think deeply.. but brain stuck lo, how to think??

gonna sleep now lo.. nitea ya all..