Thursday, March 20, 2008

haiz.. sad, heart pain for it

hmm, 2day whole day bored at home finally at nite can go pasar malam with Samantha and Mei Sei liao.. so damn bored at home for this few months really make me feel like dying.. CB today whole day raining.. wtf!! so scare no time to go out lor.. haiz, bt finally at last i bought something fromt here.. juz the small small bear for phone use.. i still cannot find the big big coin saver.. dunno why leh im seems so desperate to go out hor? mayb gua.. bcuz really at home for such a damn long time liao.. when someone ask me free or not sure i say FREE..
as i noe she din study for whole day,but she got test on next tuesday leh.. hope she will study hard lor after that.. haiya!! i m so damn blur lor.. i dunno that she not feeling well.. if not i also dun wan she teman we walk pasar malam laa... so guilty now.. make her body become weak.. i juz noe she not feeling well, but i dunno it is really so serious.. but nvm la.. except for concerning, wat else i can do? a lil bit heart pain when saw her face so suffering, still wan she fetch me back after yam cha.. so worry... but at last she reach home safely, den also no need worry liao la.. juz sleep only lor.. but i take so damn many cup of nescafe.. really 2nite seems like no need sleep adi lor.. my stomach full with useless GASES.. and whole body feeling damn hot, hard to sleep..
but leh 2moro i have to wake up early ar!!! i have to go Midvalley before go setapak.. to have a movie with them!! haiz, dunno can wake up on time or not.. and.. dunno my tis hard feeling izzit related with cigarette leh? few days din take liao.. haih, so hard to tahan lor.. argh !!! suffer T.T

im going to setapak soon.. actually why everytime when im doing some decision also sure got problems wan?? laz time when sem2, bcuz of someone i choose to continue.. but at last also i prefer to stop in sme3 since i notice i adi wasted lot of money and times.. it is not worth anymore for me to keep waiting~ but now, dunno why so fast i change target liao.. my "aiya" mama is supporting me to go ahead,, but still some problem appear in my mind.. i really dunno should i go for her or not.. start from end of april we have to move into setapak adi i think.. so we will got less chance to meet except for weekends when im coming back.. so sad.. T.T really hard to choose.. how come im so easy to fall inside these TRAPS?!!!? i hope to be free.. but very hard for me to be free.. im ...... moody now.. plus anger a bit... why i so stupid drink so many cup of nescafe? until whole stomach also water inside, hard to get sleep.... regret adi.. no more next time !!

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